ain't it funny.

So I haven't posted in a while, so its probably about time.
There's been a few moments of hilarity, none of which I can remember (or would seem so funny out of context and so on). These holidays have been good so far, haven't really done much though, and have done even less work.
Teds isn't talking to me, and i'm not sure why. I was supposed to meet up with him on wednesday but then I couldn't because I forgot I was supposed to be visiting the Regal in Oxford with my sister and helping with her website, whilst that was also my only free day to do homework. So I sent him a text tuesday afternoon and have had no reply. So really, if he's going to be like that then fuck it.
Also, Bike is being a bit of an idiot about this whole thing and whilst he is texting me back now, still not really talking and he seems very reluctant.
But one advantage has come out of this, which is that i'm beginning to work out exactly how I operate in terms of people. Which isn't necessarily a good thing because i'm mainly finding faults. At least, I think I am.
I think I might have been a bit hasty, however on reflection this is ok because of my horoscope (which why explain why i'm feeling as i am at the moment). So it feels as it does when a close friend or something goes away, or you break up with someone and you know it's wrong.
But then i'm thinking this is just because I like to want what I can't have and when I can have it, I don't want it anymore. A bit like that guy in that film with Jennifer Aniston where he's sleeping with her but isn't interested when he finds out she's dumped her "boyfriend" for him.
So yeah.
But I might actually be missing him. I know I am as a friend, because he's the only one I could really talk to but I just don't know.

If anyone's reading this, some advice would be nice.