elephant.

"Do you ever feel like there's an elephant in the room?"

"Like, when you want to say something but you can't, and so the not being able to say that thing blocks you from saying so many other things. Because it's an elephant, that takes up too much room."

Absolutely clueless. Alright, so my explanation wasn't particularly coherent but still...

And there's a part of me that's glad. This means that an awkward conversation wasn't had. However, maybe the whole reason I sent that was to try and lead into 'that' conversation.

I wish I didn't feel like this. But at the same time, I'm glad I do. I thought I would never feel like this again after Thorn.
I knew it would be him. I always want what I can't have.