loop.

People always seem to wonder why i'm so quiet a lot of the time.
Well, ok. That's not exactly what they wonder. They just don't get who I am, because i'm one person with some people, and another with others.

It's just the effect people have. If you're around happy, loud people, it rubs off on you. And the same with quiet, more restrained people. And this is the person I am most. I suppose you could say i'm more of a listener than a talker, but lets put a bit of blame on Thorn again, because before him I used to be a non-stop talker.Then he made me feel like nothing I said mattered or was worth listening to.

Anyway. I don't just talk and talk and if something's bothering me, I keep it quiet until I can't bear it anymore. Maybe that's why.

I've been ill this last week with a sore throat, the flu and now laryngitus, which is a result of everything else I suppose. But I didn't get one text or call from the people that are meant to give a damn, asking how I am or even where I am (seeing as they wouldn't know I was ill).

And then a few of my "friends" went out to a party saturday night, well they went to 2, both of which I was invited to. But I didn't get asked by them if I was going or what. Even though, when I am going to something and I know they are, I ask them, and organise stuff around getting there and back, helping them out etc.

And now that Flower is going back out with her Boyf, they've become their own elite little threesome again and I've been ditched and left out of the loop.

Just being asked would have been nice.