trapped.

There's a reason why people are discouraged from acting like they're in a movie; because things don't really work that way.

Usually, by telling someone how you feel, it makes you more liberated. You've got whatever it was off your chest, and you can carry on. But I just feel worse. More trapped than I was by the whole thing.

Because at first, I was offered the chance to talk about it, which I declined. I didn't see what good it would do. But I realise now. By not talking about it, the air wasn't cleared. So now, there's this huuge problem in which I feel one way with not an inkling about him, and I don't feel like I can talk to him like I used to. So it feels like I have lost a friend.

The worst part is, my other 'friends' I cannot talk to either, because of past issues and also issues about trust. Anyone else I could talk to, probably doesn't give a shit, or would just give too much patronising 'sympathy' (its the only way I could think of to describe it).

So i'm stuck.

In other news, I have a raging sore throat and a banging headache, with an assembly to do tomorrow - which I doubt I will do, because I doubt I will go in as I am feeling so rough, so the other girl will probably chicken out, leaving everyone in the lurch. I feel a day out of the house might kill me, and I have the possibility of a driving test next week that I cannot be ill for, along with mock exams.

Fun times, as always.